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This photo's at least 10 years old, but you can see something of the suspicion in her eyes.

I wish things were different. I wish it didn't have to come to this, but I can't see any other way around it. I want simply to dissolve the abuse, and deflect it from me. I think one of the best ways I can do that is just expose her manipulations. Just expose the dynamic to the universe, for what it is.

How else can I surrender, without feeling responsible for an abuser, and something that's out of my hands?

I'm tired of family shit. I was tired of it long ago, and I don't want it thrust upon me now.